Well, just got back from the company's D&D. Cant say i really enjoy myself, more like going thru the motion. Perhaps i looked outgoing, but beyond that outgoing look, i prefer to settle in front of my pc, penning down my thoughts and let my thoughts run wild, like wat i m doing now. My perfect R-E-S-T is to be able spend the weekend at home, be it a couch potato surfing the boring few limited channels i have, be it playing the different kinds of mindless games in front of the pc all day or strolling down the dirty smelly canal near my home.....R-E-S-T to me is to be able to do wat i cant do for a long time, just being alone and letting my thoughts run wild. Unfortunately, i dun have the luxury. In the place where i lived, things moved very fast......and weekends unfortunately are always packed wif activities, be it entertainment, spending time wif family, or catching the unfinished work or studies.
Enough of the whining....may as well write smthg since i cant sleep after drowning myself down wif a few cups of coke just now....for those who just noe me, i m super sensitive to caffeine......a cup of coke is enough to keep me awake for a long time, so i may as well pen down my thoughts.
Just read a very good article by King Kang (a renowed writer back in my place) that sparked off some thoughts. He wrote abt revisitng a place tat he once visited wif his loved one and wish that person was there then. Well, i tot of my Japan trip to Hokkaido last year. I supposed it was the best trip so far....and yes, it stirred up my thoughts. I was tinking, if i did ever visit that place again, wifout the person who did the trip wif me then, i may write smthg like that. We went thru a lot of stuff, like getting stranded in Lake Toya, missing out the fabulous fireworks, caught in the rain in Noboribetsu, experiencing the musical box tingerling in Otaru and yes, receiving that particular email fr the fren who travelled wif me and who had the same thoughts warmed my heart....perhaps if i travelled back to Hokkaido alone again, i may write a "wish you were here" article. Of course, i also remembered about the trip i made to KL. i mentioned it a few times when i was in Hua Hin, reason was the two places had so much in common. In Hua Hin, we climbed to the top of the temple to pray, in KL we climbed the 272 flight of stairs to pray....and to the same God, Buddha. The only diff was the travel partner was diff......but it still brought back lots of good memories.....
Was renewing my frenship wif a sec sch fren recently. Actually cant rem how i noe her, din really talk to her in sec sch then......but i was just using my R-E-S-T period to do things i cant do for a long long time....like i said, i was always known to be outgoing. Surprisingly she saw the serious part of me that day, talking and planning for my future. Cant imagine i cld be that serious. I supposed tat was the prb wif me.........i dun like pple to get too close to me, to noe me too well. I guess a distance, no matter how tiny was always good. But anyway it was good to chat wif her. It is always good to talk to more pple to see how they feel abt things, how they see you. In short, is always good to hear abt more opinions.....
I rem there was tis saying in a Japanese show that, a short rest is meant for longer road ahead. I supposed after all the rest periods i required, i would have to get on to complete things that i was supposed to. Before i cld get to my rest periods, i supposed i still had much work to complete.....till then. Gan ba te !
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Friday, November 18, 2005
First blog, first thoughts
Well, finally i officially started my own first blog. There is always a first time to everything and yes, first time is always a good experience, a time to be treasured. Well, to be honest, this is not really my first blog, but i decided to start a new one becos the old one back in friendster robbed me of my privacy, frens on the list wld email, msn and sms me whenever there is an update to my life......well, i guess i m a private person who doesnt want to be disturbed unnecessarily....let alone share my thoughts wif pple who proclaimed to be my "frens". I just needed somewhere to vent out my emotions, to let go of things, and yes, an emergency exit.
Since this is the official first tiny little blog where i can write freely and hopefully, wifout pple disturbing me abt the latest stuff in my life, i decided to write a long long one......First impression always last i guess.
Just came back from Hua Hin after having a short break......well mentally i m still tired, but a new semester of sch had began and it wasnt easy to cope wif work and studies. Finally realise doing part time is no joke, it takes a lot of mental and physical strength to do it. Imagine having to forgo the parties every weekend to immerse in what i call D-R-E-A-M-S. Is tough, but is a challenge. Ok enough on the grumbling....just wanna talk about a bit on Hua Hin.
Well, the aim to Hua Hin was achieved, to rot there and to tink nothing of work and studies, just immerse myself in the world of paradise and yes i met an interesting man there. A man whom i do not know his name.....yet he was a man whom i chatted like an old fren. Let's call him Dr D. I only knew he was a uterologist from Dutch. In case imagination went wild, he went to Hua Hin wif his wife......i went wif my best fren and so it was a pure admiration. We met at a snorkelling trip at Bang Saphan. Well, i supposed his knowledge about the world really made him a nice talking partner. He could talk about anything under the sun, i wonder if that was the gift for ang mohs. He was sharing his experience as a doctor in Kenya and Africa and suddenly i feel so insignificant, so sheltered. Is like there were so many things tat i haven really experienced in life. Perhaps that was God's gift to me tat day in Hua Hin, enlightening me of the numerous things i hadnt experienced and i shldnt give up my chances of experiencing them. I suppose you only live once and you were only young once, and when opportunity approached, give it a shot. Of course opportunites come wif a trade-off. Is tough to find a man well-learned in my place....or perhaps we lived in a materialistic world where knowledge no longer mattered. However, on that particular day in Hua Hin, i saw all the shortcomings in myself.....and i told myself, i will continue to work hard and learn hard about things around me, about things in the world and yes be a better person.
Is almost coming to an end of the year and i tink i found my new resolution not only for next year, but for the many many years to come, to become a better person, to learn more and to become knowlegable......and hopefully i am able to fulfill tat promise to myself.
Dr D, whoever you are, thanks for letting me to know you. It was a truly enjoyable experience chatting wif u. Wherever you are, may you always be a blessing to pple around you.....
Since this is the official first tiny little blog where i can write freely and hopefully, wifout pple disturbing me abt the latest stuff in my life, i decided to write a long long one......First impression always last i guess.
Just came back from Hua Hin after having a short break......well mentally i m still tired, but a new semester of sch had began and it wasnt easy to cope wif work and studies. Finally realise doing part time is no joke, it takes a lot of mental and physical strength to do it. Imagine having to forgo the parties every weekend to immerse in what i call D-R-E-A-M-S. Is tough, but is a challenge. Ok enough on the grumbling....just wanna talk about a bit on Hua Hin.
Well, the aim to Hua Hin was achieved, to rot there and to tink nothing of work and studies, just immerse myself in the world of paradise and yes i met an interesting man there. A man whom i do not know his name.....yet he was a man whom i chatted like an old fren. Let's call him Dr D. I only knew he was a uterologist from Dutch. In case imagination went wild, he went to Hua Hin wif his wife......i went wif my best fren and so it was a pure admiration. We met at a snorkelling trip at Bang Saphan. Well, i supposed his knowledge about the world really made him a nice talking partner. He could talk about anything under the sun, i wonder if that was the gift for ang mohs. He was sharing his experience as a doctor in Kenya and Africa and suddenly i feel so insignificant, so sheltered. Is like there were so many things tat i haven really experienced in life. Perhaps that was God's gift to me tat day in Hua Hin, enlightening me of the numerous things i hadnt experienced and i shldnt give up my chances of experiencing them. I suppose you only live once and you were only young once, and when opportunity approached, give it a shot. Of course opportunites come wif a trade-off. Is tough to find a man well-learned in my place....or perhaps we lived in a materialistic world where knowledge no longer mattered. However, on that particular day in Hua Hin, i saw all the shortcomings in myself.....and i told myself, i will continue to work hard and learn hard about things around me, about things in the world and yes be a better person.
Is almost coming to an end of the year and i tink i found my new resolution not only for next year, but for the many many years to come, to become a better person, to learn more and to become knowlegable......and hopefully i am able to fulfill tat promise to myself.
Dr D, whoever you are, thanks for letting me to know you. It was a truly enjoyable experience chatting wif u. Wherever you are, may you always be a blessing to pple around you.....
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