Hmm, finally we are at the last day of the year. Well, i wanted to write one whole chunk of the past year happenings in my first website last nite, but alas, i was drunk...yes, drunk. It was the sec time in my life that i got drunk. To confess, i m not a gd drinker and i dun enjoy drinking, reason being for the first time in my life tat i got drunk, i did smthg that blew out of proportion, hence i promised myself i would nvr ever get drunk again. However, this time was diff, it was a biz gathering, hence i cld not say "No". Sometimes, you just cant helped it....but not too bad for me, my drinking capapacity has improved and i still managed to take the MRT home by myself...though my head was spinning badly....
Ok, after a gd swim in the morning, i felt much refreshed.....had a gd breakfast wif mum at the market (which i haven visited for years), and now sitting down, listening to Rene Liu's newest album, i shall begin my day of revisiting the Year 2005........
Year 2005 to me, was a good year. It was 3 months into a new job, a new step that i have taken to step out of the comfort zone and accomplishing things that i longed wanted to in my so called career. Though there was some unknown into the new envr, i tink i love everything in the new job, the pple, the job scope and the envr. Yes, it was much better spending 8 hours a day yahooing and gossiping. I guess i just wanted to become a better person as the years go by and i find that lacking in my old envr, where there was too much time, and wat i could do was oni to gossip. Where work was concerned, i tink i score a High Distinction in 2005. Not that my perf was fantastic, but wat i really felt, i was finally learning, and this job was wat i longed, to LEARN. No more gossips, no more boring projects, and finally someone who really appreciated my efforts and acknowledging it and Yes, finally my boss was smarter than me (not tat i m smart, but all bosses seemed to be blur abt their jobs) and i tink he was truly a motivation and inspiration to me. Once again, i was motivated to tink abt ways of solving problems after work, and once again, i wld commit myself to be doing research abt work, it was a force/energy that i had been searching since my sch days and i cld feel, i m getting it back.
Of course, Year 2005 was not all about work. Where study was concerned, it was a busy year, for i was taking the main bulk of the units in this year....it was tough to do 2 modules per semester part time. But yes, i survived. However, it also dawned on me that maybe after all, i was not so talented in Psych. Perhaps due to time constraint, Psych became gg thru a motion, i just wanted to finish it quickly. I had lost my focus along the way, forgot the initial reason y i took up the course. I forgot that my motive was to learn, to learn abt the science of humans and understand pple better. As i was losing hope, i tink God had sent his angels to me. I met two such angels in my psych course, both of them were lecturers. If you had done part time before, chances were u would get crappy lecturers.....and i was so used to it, that i nvr held high hopes anymore. The first lady had a certain kind of air in her, for my standards, she was rather pretty. She was definitely knowledgable and maybe becos of her intelligence, she was rather sarcastic. However, she was one of the few lecturers who really knew her stuff, but she was not really approachable in the sense she kept a distance fr her students. I wld say it was a smart ways to ward off students who were overly dependent on her. If i had to find a symbol for her, i wld compare her to birds of paradise, elegant, but so distant. The sec lady i tink wld have a bigger impact on me. For one, she was a veri next door lecturer who wld admit, she din noe all the stuff, who wld throw the questions back to the students and who wld learn fr the students. For that, she really earned my admiration and she was the kind that was approachable, and who wld talk abt other stuff beside psych. If i were to rate her, i tink she looked like a sunflower, full of energy and friendly and approachable. These two persons were my inspiration bcos i hope one day i wld become as knowledgable as they are and able to instill inspiration to others. For now, i still cant foresee my future in psych. I m no longer that sure if i really wanted to continue, not that i have lost my interest, but maybe becos i m not sure wat i really wanted to pursue....i told my very best fren, rite now i m leading a fulfiling life becos i was pursuing two things in my life that i have interest in......it was tough that i had to give up one for the other, however i m also sure they cant co exist....someday, i wld have to make a choice.....
The other thing i wld want to talk abt is relationships. Guess i finally got myself out of the ordeal after 3 years of trying....honestly, if u were to ask me now to describe our relationship, i cant give a concrete ans....for one, i was nvr sure if he was ever in love wif me bf...he nvr explicitly told me, but his actions were otherwise. Hence it was always in a state of confusion. I hate to admit, but it was also partly bcos of him tat i left....i cant bear to face him everyday. By leaving i noe time wld heal all wounds and i was right. No longer do i feel so intense for him anymore, he became a fren whom i cld do wifout. Even so, i still wished him all the best as always....becos he was somebody impt......so it was impt that he was happy. I may not be the one, but i really hope he wld find the one and make him a more complete and better person. It was painful to see a talented person wallow in despair, hopefully someday he wld wake up fr his idea, and put his strengths into great use....i promise, wherever i m in any corner of the world, i will be happy for him......
Year 2005 i also did a fair bit of travel...Been to oz, redang and hua hin. It was always great to travel, for every trip i wld get smthg back.....and recharge myself.......Out of the 3, my vote goes to Redang, was really a beautiful place and i had deepened my love for the sea.....beneath the calm surfaces, there was so much movements...and it was a beautiful sight to be swimming wif the marine creatures...though most of the time, i dunno wat they were.....hopefully the next year i get back, it wld still be as beautiful as ever...
Having a good year in 2005, i have higher expectations for 2006. Somehow, i cld feel my body energizing up for next year which is coming in less than 24 hours. For one, i know my career will climb a new heights. I m not an ambitious person, i just wanted the experience of working overseas and how well i can deal wif foreigners who doesnt like Chinese. It is the thirst of experience that is driving me on. Second, i wld have finish my course by mid of next year, by then, i hope i will have a clearer conclusion of wat i wanted to do. Thirdly, hopefully i will be able to find somebody special in the year to go. Well, honestly i leave it to fate.....as long as i m happy, even if i have to walk the journey on my own, i will have the courage to do it. Fourthly, i hope my family and frens will be healthy and happy. Nothing beats the two. Lastly, i hope i will become a better, more knowledgable person......becoming an inspiration to others...
Goodbye 2005, Welcome 2006 !
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Q-U-O-T-E-S
You can achieve anything you want in life if you have the courage todream it, the intelligence to make a realistic plan, and the will to see that plan through to the end. -- Sidney A. Friedman
The above quote is my favourite, and my motto for life. I still remembered how I came about to put this quote into my signature 2 years ago. However, i tink i have forgotten the significance of it (or rather a convenient excuse , i was too caught up in my life to practise) until a fine lady came along and gave me a smack on my face. Coincidentally, the lady and the quote are related to Psychology.
I still remember about 2 years back, i was veri lost in life. It happened, they call it the quarter-life crisis though i was slightly overaged..keke. I din know what i wanted in life, i only knew i was hunger for new experiences, hunger for knowledge, but my then job (not career) was coming to a standstill. I thought for long and hard and also to create more options for myself, i ventured into the art of Psychology. Honestly, Psych is a dream i wanted to fulfill badly. I always thot i was somehow gifted in the human science, i seemed to be able to read pple's tots based on my intuition and basically, the badly stereotyped Psych then to me, was wat it was all about. Since my job cld not gave me the satisfaction that i wanted, i ventured into my dreams. I remembered i did all the researches i cld find in my place about distance learning, the path to being a psychologist and the ordeals and sacrifices that i needed to make. The truth was : i need 7 years, 4 years of undergrad, 1 year of masters and 2 years of internship to earn my licence to psychologist. A long process i thought, longer than a doctor yet less prestigous than that. However, i was not put off by the efforts required....i rem i even told myself, as long as i desired it, i will be able to get it.....
Coincidentally, after i made the decision into the Psych course, i chanced upon the above quote from Daily Insights and it fitted the picture then. I had the courage to dream, veri few in the place i came from wld want to be a psychologist becos it was an effortless job, and in taking the dream to a more realistic journey, i made plans to realise my dreams, to enrol in a course that wld ultimately earn my psychologist licence. Finally, the hardest of all was to persist in it.....and wif that quote, i always encouraged myself whenever i encountered setbacks in Psych. Honestly, by doing Psych, i gave up a lot of things, the time to meet new pple, to foster new relationships, to make time for family and having to cope wif study and work at the same time. It was tough and i tink i was stretched to the limit...and i did have tots of giving up...of not furthering after i graduated.....seemed to me i was not able to persist....my will was not strong enough......
Two days ago, as i was communicating wif my current tutor in Psychology, she loved my quote and somehow it was like a wake up call. I had to say i found some inspiration in her, she was the sec person in the distance learning course tat was able to instill some inspirations. I had 2 more modules before i finished my undergrad course and somehow i had forgotten the significance of the quote.....i forgotten abt my desire to become a better person thru psych, my passion and everything abt my sacrifices....and all these were attributed to time.....i simply had no time to tink, i was too tied up in last semester where i had to do 5 essays in 3 mths along wif a major proj in my current career....Psych had been like gg thru a motion. Suddenly when the lady reminded me of my quote, it was like a slap in the face, it was like, what had happened along the way?
Honestly, i had to admit i became a better person after doing Psych, i saw a lot of shortcoming in myself. The main bulk of it boils down to : am i really talented? Actually i dunno. I seemed to be able to comprehend things better than the rest, but i was unable to produce a beautiful piece of essay or lab report no matter how hard i tried. Sometimes i really wonder if it boils down to my command of English or is God telling me "Yes, you have tried it and you know you are not up to the mark." Is kind of disheartening at times when i sat down and is such a pain to go thru the process of writing......Another factor was my career was taking off, at tis pt in time, i wld say it was really a tough decision and tough battle wifin myself....
Am really grateful to the lady who gave me a smack......for making me tink it thru again and again and for her patience in answering a silly and basic question which i shld not be asking....for her encouragement and lastly for being an inspiration. Hopefully, one of these days, i wld be an inspiration to somebody regardless be it in my career or in Psychology.....Is a blessing to be an inspiration. Thank you Lady!
The above quote is my favourite, and my motto for life. I still remembered how I came about to put this quote into my signature 2 years ago. However, i tink i have forgotten the significance of it (or rather a convenient excuse , i was too caught up in my life to practise) until a fine lady came along and gave me a smack on my face. Coincidentally, the lady and the quote are related to Psychology.
I still remember about 2 years back, i was veri lost in life. It happened, they call it the quarter-life crisis though i was slightly overaged..keke. I din know what i wanted in life, i only knew i was hunger for new experiences, hunger for knowledge, but my then job (not career) was coming to a standstill. I thought for long and hard and also to create more options for myself, i ventured into the art of Psychology. Honestly, Psych is a dream i wanted to fulfill badly. I always thot i was somehow gifted in the human science, i seemed to be able to read pple's tots based on my intuition and basically, the badly stereotyped Psych then to me, was wat it was all about. Since my job cld not gave me the satisfaction that i wanted, i ventured into my dreams. I remembered i did all the researches i cld find in my place about distance learning, the path to being a psychologist and the ordeals and sacrifices that i needed to make. The truth was : i need 7 years, 4 years of undergrad, 1 year of masters and 2 years of internship to earn my licence to psychologist. A long process i thought, longer than a doctor yet less prestigous than that. However, i was not put off by the efforts required....i rem i even told myself, as long as i desired it, i will be able to get it.....
Coincidentally, after i made the decision into the Psych course, i chanced upon the above quote from Daily Insights and it fitted the picture then. I had the courage to dream, veri few in the place i came from wld want to be a psychologist becos it was an effortless job, and in taking the dream to a more realistic journey, i made plans to realise my dreams, to enrol in a course that wld ultimately earn my psychologist licence. Finally, the hardest of all was to persist in it.....and wif that quote, i always encouraged myself whenever i encountered setbacks in Psych. Honestly, by doing Psych, i gave up a lot of things, the time to meet new pple, to foster new relationships, to make time for family and having to cope wif study and work at the same time. It was tough and i tink i was stretched to the limit...and i did have tots of giving up...of not furthering after i graduated.....seemed to me i was not able to persist....my will was not strong enough......
Two days ago, as i was communicating wif my current tutor in Psychology, she loved my quote and somehow it was like a wake up call. I had to say i found some inspiration in her, she was the sec person in the distance learning course tat was able to instill some inspirations. I had 2 more modules before i finished my undergrad course and somehow i had forgotten the significance of the quote.....i forgotten abt my desire to become a better person thru psych, my passion and everything abt my sacrifices....and all these were attributed to time.....i simply had no time to tink, i was too tied up in last semester where i had to do 5 essays in 3 mths along wif a major proj in my current career....Psych had been like gg thru a motion. Suddenly when the lady reminded me of my quote, it was like a slap in the face, it was like, what had happened along the way?
Honestly, i had to admit i became a better person after doing Psych, i saw a lot of shortcoming in myself. The main bulk of it boils down to : am i really talented? Actually i dunno. I seemed to be able to comprehend things better than the rest, but i was unable to produce a beautiful piece of essay or lab report no matter how hard i tried. Sometimes i really wonder if it boils down to my command of English or is God telling me "Yes, you have tried it and you know you are not up to the mark." Is kind of disheartening at times when i sat down and is such a pain to go thru the process of writing......Another factor was my career was taking off, at tis pt in time, i wld say it was really a tough decision and tough battle wifin myself....
Am really grateful to the lady who gave me a smack......for making me tink it thru again and again and for her patience in answering a silly and basic question which i shld not be asking....for her encouragement and lastly for being an inspiration. Hopefully, one of these days, i wld be an inspiration to somebody regardless be it in my career or in Psychology.....Is a blessing to be an inspiration. Thank you Lady!
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Perhaps Love
Hmm, i have to admit, i wasnt in the best of mood today. Work was piling up and i haven completed my assignment for my second last module. Worse, my work is robbing me of my time to concentrate that my assignments became a burden....really bad timing. Was thinking after the gruelling previous semester, i shld be able to enjoy myself more this semester, but alas, work commitment had taken the toil out of me....but i do enjoy my work though....it finally gave me the satisfaction i was looking for ....for a long long time.
Somehow i decided to watch the movie today. Wun miss Takeshi's move esp this one had such a strong cast.....and somehow when i decided to watch the movie, i wld link it wif him. Yes, i know, he was already a past, but perhaps it had to do wif Takeshi's last movie, "Turn left, Turn right". I still rem the time when i cried so hard after watching the movie, perhaps i can feel wif the movie. He and I were like two parallel lines which cant meet.....and i rem i told him i wld want to wat "Turn left, Turn right" another time. He asked me why, and i told a white lie, saying tat i was a fan of Takeshi. Well, i just wanna see if i cld see other things else by watching it the sec time......anyway, somehow he was in my thoughts today...
I wld say it was a gd movie.......Takeshi cant forget the past, while Zhou Xun wanted to move fwd......perhaps like wat Zhou Xun did, one shld move fwd. And so i tot i did........i din want any contact......but maybe he cant let me go.......Gotcha his sms the other day. I cant help but feel glad. No doubt, i feel no more pain, but is also a fact tat i still had some feelings for him......guess wat i had "invested" had taken a toil out of me tat after 3 years, i cld still feel something....Actually i wonder, will u ever get over somebody? That person had taken something fr u tat u dun feel like the same person anymore...wat he had said and did, u may have adopted and adapted...it was like the many little things in life still contained some of his images.....
Anyway, i really love this movie, i feel everything was so nicely captured and yes the cast gave a splendid performance.......the display of emotions was so great. Perhaps love was supposed to be simple.....a simple love story that Jacky always wanted to make.....and it was also a simple thing tat everyone yearned....at least for me. When i was young, i wanted a heart wenching relationship so tat i wld cherish my loved ones.....I supposed i got my wish and i finally realise perhaps love wld be better if it is simple......It is a blessing to be simple...and i wld always rem that...:)
Time to go to bed ne......!
Somehow i decided to watch the movie today. Wun miss Takeshi's move esp this one had such a strong cast.....and somehow when i decided to watch the movie, i wld link it wif him. Yes, i know, he was already a past, but perhaps it had to do wif Takeshi's last movie, "Turn left, Turn right". I still rem the time when i cried so hard after watching the movie, perhaps i can feel wif the movie. He and I were like two parallel lines which cant meet.....and i rem i told him i wld want to wat "Turn left, Turn right" another time. He asked me why, and i told a white lie, saying tat i was a fan of Takeshi. Well, i just wanna see if i cld see other things else by watching it the sec time......anyway, somehow he was in my thoughts today...
I wld say it was a gd movie.......Takeshi cant forget the past, while Zhou Xun wanted to move fwd......perhaps like wat Zhou Xun did, one shld move fwd. And so i tot i did........i din want any contact......but maybe he cant let me go.......Gotcha his sms the other day. I cant help but feel glad. No doubt, i feel no more pain, but is also a fact tat i still had some feelings for him......guess wat i had "invested" had taken a toil out of me tat after 3 years, i cld still feel something....Actually i wonder, will u ever get over somebody? That person had taken something fr u tat u dun feel like the same person anymore...wat he had said and did, u may have adopted and adapted...it was like the many little things in life still contained some of his images.....
Anyway, i really love this movie, i feel everything was so nicely captured and yes the cast gave a splendid performance.......the display of emotions was so great. Perhaps love was supposed to be simple.....a simple love story that Jacky always wanted to make.....and it was also a simple thing tat everyone yearned....at least for me. When i was young, i wanted a heart wenching relationship so tat i wld cherish my loved ones.....I supposed i got my wish and i finally realise perhaps love wld be better if it is simple......It is a blessing to be simple...and i wld always rem that...:)
Time to go to bed ne......!
Saturday, November 26, 2005
R-E-S-T
Well, just got back from the company's D&D. Cant say i really enjoy myself, more like going thru the motion. Perhaps i looked outgoing, but beyond that outgoing look, i prefer to settle in front of my pc, penning down my thoughts and let my thoughts run wild, like wat i m doing now. My perfect R-E-S-T is to be able spend the weekend at home, be it a couch potato surfing the boring few limited channels i have, be it playing the different kinds of mindless games in front of the pc all day or strolling down the dirty smelly canal near my home.....R-E-S-T to me is to be able to do wat i cant do for a long time, just being alone and letting my thoughts run wild. Unfortunately, i dun have the luxury. In the place where i lived, things moved very fast......and weekends unfortunately are always packed wif activities, be it entertainment, spending time wif family, or catching the unfinished work or studies.
Enough of the whining....may as well write smthg since i cant sleep after drowning myself down wif a few cups of coke just now....for those who just noe me, i m super sensitive to caffeine......a cup of coke is enough to keep me awake for a long time, so i may as well pen down my thoughts.
Just read a very good article by King Kang (a renowed writer back in my place) that sparked off some thoughts. He wrote abt revisitng a place tat he once visited wif his loved one and wish that person was there then. Well, i tot of my Japan trip to Hokkaido last year. I supposed it was the best trip so far....and yes, it stirred up my thoughts. I was tinking, if i did ever visit that place again, wifout the person who did the trip wif me then, i may write smthg like that. We went thru a lot of stuff, like getting stranded in Lake Toya, missing out the fabulous fireworks, caught in the rain in Noboribetsu, experiencing the musical box tingerling in Otaru and yes, receiving that particular email fr the fren who travelled wif me and who had the same thoughts warmed my heart....perhaps if i travelled back to Hokkaido alone again, i may write a "wish you were here" article. Of course, i also remembered about the trip i made to KL. i mentioned it a few times when i was in Hua Hin, reason was the two places had so much in common. In Hua Hin, we climbed to the top of the temple to pray, in KL we climbed the 272 flight of stairs to pray....and to the same God, Buddha. The only diff was the travel partner was diff......but it still brought back lots of good memories.....
Was renewing my frenship wif a sec sch fren recently. Actually cant rem how i noe her, din really talk to her in sec sch then......but i was just using my R-E-S-T period to do things i cant do for a long long time....like i said, i was always known to be outgoing. Surprisingly she saw the serious part of me that day, talking and planning for my future. Cant imagine i cld be that serious. I supposed tat was the prb wif me.........i dun like pple to get too close to me, to noe me too well. I guess a distance, no matter how tiny was always good. But anyway it was good to chat wif her. It is always good to talk to more pple to see how they feel abt things, how they see you. In short, is always good to hear abt more opinions.....
I rem there was tis saying in a Japanese show that, a short rest is meant for longer road ahead. I supposed after all the rest periods i required, i would have to get on to complete things that i was supposed to. Before i cld get to my rest periods, i supposed i still had much work to complete.....till then. Gan ba te !
Enough of the whining....may as well write smthg since i cant sleep after drowning myself down wif a few cups of coke just now....for those who just noe me, i m super sensitive to caffeine......a cup of coke is enough to keep me awake for a long time, so i may as well pen down my thoughts.
Just read a very good article by King Kang (a renowed writer back in my place) that sparked off some thoughts. He wrote abt revisitng a place tat he once visited wif his loved one and wish that person was there then. Well, i tot of my Japan trip to Hokkaido last year. I supposed it was the best trip so far....and yes, it stirred up my thoughts. I was tinking, if i did ever visit that place again, wifout the person who did the trip wif me then, i may write smthg like that. We went thru a lot of stuff, like getting stranded in Lake Toya, missing out the fabulous fireworks, caught in the rain in Noboribetsu, experiencing the musical box tingerling in Otaru and yes, receiving that particular email fr the fren who travelled wif me and who had the same thoughts warmed my heart....perhaps if i travelled back to Hokkaido alone again, i may write a "wish you were here" article. Of course, i also remembered about the trip i made to KL. i mentioned it a few times when i was in Hua Hin, reason was the two places had so much in common. In Hua Hin, we climbed to the top of the temple to pray, in KL we climbed the 272 flight of stairs to pray....and to the same God, Buddha. The only diff was the travel partner was diff......but it still brought back lots of good memories.....
Was renewing my frenship wif a sec sch fren recently. Actually cant rem how i noe her, din really talk to her in sec sch then......but i was just using my R-E-S-T period to do things i cant do for a long long time....like i said, i was always known to be outgoing. Surprisingly she saw the serious part of me that day, talking and planning for my future. Cant imagine i cld be that serious. I supposed tat was the prb wif me.........i dun like pple to get too close to me, to noe me too well. I guess a distance, no matter how tiny was always good. But anyway it was good to chat wif her. It is always good to talk to more pple to see how they feel abt things, how they see you. In short, is always good to hear abt more opinions.....
I rem there was tis saying in a Japanese show that, a short rest is meant for longer road ahead. I supposed after all the rest periods i required, i would have to get on to complete things that i was supposed to. Before i cld get to my rest periods, i supposed i still had much work to complete.....till then. Gan ba te !
Friday, November 18, 2005
First blog, first thoughts
Well, finally i officially started my own first blog. There is always a first time to everything and yes, first time is always a good experience, a time to be treasured. Well, to be honest, this is not really my first blog, but i decided to start a new one becos the old one back in friendster robbed me of my privacy, frens on the list wld email, msn and sms me whenever there is an update to my life......well, i guess i m a private person who doesnt want to be disturbed unnecessarily....let alone share my thoughts wif pple who proclaimed to be my "frens". I just needed somewhere to vent out my emotions, to let go of things, and yes, an emergency exit.
Since this is the official first tiny little blog where i can write freely and hopefully, wifout pple disturbing me abt the latest stuff in my life, i decided to write a long long one......First impression always last i guess.
Just came back from Hua Hin after having a short break......well mentally i m still tired, but a new semester of sch had began and it wasnt easy to cope wif work and studies. Finally realise doing part time is no joke, it takes a lot of mental and physical strength to do it. Imagine having to forgo the parties every weekend to immerse in what i call D-R-E-A-M-S. Is tough, but is a challenge. Ok enough on the grumbling....just wanna talk about a bit on Hua Hin.
Well, the aim to Hua Hin was achieved, to rot there and to tink nothing of work and studies, just immerse myself in the world of paradise and yes i met an interesting man there. A man whom i do not know his name.....yet he was a man whom i chatted like an old fren. Let's call him Dr D. I only knew he was a uterologist from Dutch. In case imagination went wild, he went to Hua Hin wif his wife......i went wif my best fren and so it was a pure admiration. We met at a snorkelling trip at Bang Saphan. Well, i supposed his knowledge about the world really made him a nice talking partner. He could talk about anything under the sun, i wonder if that was the gift for ang mohs. He was sharing his experience as a doctor in Kenya and Africa and suddenly i feel so insignificant, so sheltered. Is like there were so many things tat i haven really experienced in life. Perhaps that was God's gift to me tat day in Hua Hin, enlightening me of the numerous things i hadnt experienced and i shldnt give up my chances of experiencing them. I suppose you only live once and you were only young once, and when opportunity approached, give it a shot. Of course opportunites come wif a trade-off. Is tough to find a man well-learned in my place....or perhaps we lived in a materialistic world where knowledge no longer mattered. However, on that particular day in Hua Hin, i saw all the shortcomings in myself.....and i told myself, i will continue to work hard and learn hard about things around me, about things in the world and yes be a better person.
Is almost coming to an end of the year and i tink i found my new resolution not only for next year, but for the many many years to come, to become a better person, to learn more and to become knowlegable......and hopefully i am able to fulfill tat promise to myself.
Dr D, whoever you are, thanks for letting me to know you. It was a truly enjoyable experience chatting wif u. Wherever you are, may you always be a blessing to pple around you.....
Since this is the official first tiny little blog where i can write freely and hopefully, wifout pple disturbing me abt the latest stuff in my life, i decided to write a long long one......First impression always last i guess.
Just came back from Hua Hin after having a short break......well mentally i m still tired, but a new semester of sch had began and it wasnt easy to cope wif work and studies. Finally realise doing part time is no joke, it takes a lot of mental and physical strength to do it. Imagine having to forgo the parties every weekend to immerse in what i call D-R-E-A-M-S. Is tough, but is a challenge. Ok enough on the grumbling....just wanna talk about a bit on Hua Hin.
Well, the aim to Hua Hin was achieved, to rot there and to tink nothing of work and studies, just immerse myself in the world of paradise and yes i met an interesting man there. A man whom i do not know his name.....yet he was a man whom i chatted like an old fren. Let's call him Dr D. I only knew he was a uterologist from Dutch. In case imagination went wild, he went to Hua Hin wif his wife......i went wif my best fren and so it was a pure admiration. We met at a snorkelling trip at Bang Saphan. Well, i supposed his knowledge about the world really made him a nice talking partner. He could talk about anything under the sun, i wonder if that was the gift for ang mohs. He was sharing his experience as a doctor in Kenya and Africa and suddenly i feel so insignificant, so sheltered. Is like there were so many things tat i haven really experienced in life. Perhaps that was God's gift to me tat day in Hua Hin, enlightening me of the numerous things i hadnt experienced and i shldnt give up my chances of experiencing them. I suppose you only live once and you were only young once, and when opportunity approached, give it a shot. Of course opportunites come wif a trade-off. Is tough to find a man well-learned in my place....or perhaps we lived in a materialistic world where knowledge no longer mattered. However, on that particular day in Hua Hin, i saw all the shortcomings in myself.....and i told myself, i will continue to work hard and learn hard about things around me, about things in the world and yes be a better person.
Is almost coming to an end of the year and i tink i found my new resolution not only for next year, but for the many many years to come, to become a better person, to learn more and to become knowlegable......and hopefully i am able to fulfill tat promise to myself.
Dr D, whoever you are, thanks for letting me to know you. It was a truly enjoyable experience chatting wif u. Wherever you are, may you always be a blessing to pple around you.....
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