Thursday, December 22, 2005

Q-U-O-T-E-S

You can achieve anything you want in life if you have the courage todream it, the intelligence to make a realistic plan, and the will to see that plan through to the end. -- Sidney A. Friedman

The above quote is my favourite, and my motto for life. I still remembered how I came about to put this quote into my signature 2 years ago. However, i tink i have forgotten the significance of it (or rather a convenient excuse , i was too caught up in my life to practise) until a fine lady came along and gave me a smack on my face. Coincidentally, the lady and the quote are related to Psychology.

I still remember about 2 years back, i was veri lost in life. It happened, they call it the quarter-life crisis though i was slightly overaged..keke. I din know what i wanted in life, i only knew i was hunger for new experiences, hunger for knowledge, but my then job (not career) was coming to a standstill. I thought for long and hard and also to create more options for myself, i ventured into the art of Psychology. Honestly, Psych is a dream i wanted to fulfill badly. I always thot i was somehow gifted in the human science, i seemed to be able to read pple's tots based on my intuition and basically, the badly stereotyped Psych then to me, was wat it was all about. Since my job cld not gave me the satisfaction that i wanted, i ventured into my dreams. I remembered i did all the researches i cld find in my place about distance learning, the path to being a psychologist and the ordeals and sacrifices that i needed to make. The truth was : i need 7 years, 4 years of undergrad, 1 year of masters and 2 years of internship to earn my licence to psychologist. A long process i thought, longer than a doctor yet less prestigous than that. However, i was not put off by the efforts required....i rem i even told myself, as long as i desired it, i will be able to get it.....

Coincidentally, after i made the decision into the Psych course, i chanced upon the above quote from Daily Insights and it fitted the picture then. I had the courage to dream, veri few in the place i came from wld want to be a psychologist becos it was an effortless job, and in taking the dream to a more realistic journey, i made plans to realise my dreams, to enrol in a course that wld ultimately earn my psychologist licence. Finally, the hardest of all was to persist in it.....and wif that quote, i always encouraged myself whenever i encountered setbacks in Psych. Honestly, by doing Psych, i gave up a lot of things, the time to meet new pple, to foster new relationships, to make time for family and having to cope wif study and work at the same time. It was tough and i tink i was stretched to the limit...and i did have tots of giving up...of not furthering after i graduated.....seemed to me i was not able to persist....my will was not strong enough......

Two days ago, as i was communicating wif my current tutor in Psychology, she loved my quote and somehow it was like a wake up call. I had to say i found some inspiration in her, she was the sec person in the distance learning course tat was able to instill some inspirations. I had 2 more modules before i finished my undergrad course and somehow i had forgotten the significance of the quote.....i forgotten abt my desire to become a better person thru psych, my passion and everything abt my sacrifices....and all these were attributed to time.....i simply had no time to tink, i was too tied up in last semester where i had to do 5 essays in 3 mths along wif a major proj in my current career....Psych had been like gg thru a motion. Suddenly when the lady reminded me of my quote, it was like a slap in the face, it was like, what had happened along the way?

Honestly, i had to admit i became a better person after doing Psych, i saw a lot of shortcoming in myself. The main bulk of it boils down to : am i really talented? Actually i dunno. I seemed to be able to comprehend things better than the rest, but i was unable to produce a beautiful piece of essay or lab report no matter how hard i tried. Sometimes i really wonder if it boils down to my command of English or is God telling me "Yes, you have tried it and you know you are not up to the mark." Is kind of disheartening at times when i sat down and is such a pain to go thru the process of writing......Another factor was my career was taking off, at tis pt in time, i wld say it was really a tough decision and tough battle wifin myself....


Am really grateful to the lady who gave me a smack......for making me tink it thru again and again and for her patience in answering a silly and basic question which i shld not be asking....for her encouragement and lastly for being an inspiration. Hopefully, one of these days, i wld be an inspiration to somebody regardless be it in my career or in Psychology.....Is a blessing to be an inspiration. Thank you Lady!

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