Hmm, it is another grey week for me. It seems the effort put in and the results of the weighing machine do not tally again. :(
Eversince i started on my PT (personal training) program, i have been weighing myself consistently. Sunday thus has became the day that i love and hate. The mixture of feelings when i stand on the dreaded weighing machine. The feelings i think is like a prisoner sentenced to the gallows. If it is a good week, i would feel like a prisoner that had been granted appeal. If it is a bad week, the feeling is like counting down to my deadline.
I would say it is really emotional draining. It seemed i hit another plateau again. I have been at this weight for 2 weeks. Not sure if the CNY has anything to do with it. When i looked back at the food diary, actually, this week i have been eating more than the normal. Shouldn't i be feeling happy that i managed to maintain my weight?
Actually to be honest, i have been making good progress apart from the figures from the weighing machine. My clothes are much looser, i feel stronger and my body is more toned. But, the facts and figures do not tally and i need to do something to lift myself out of this plateau.
In another one week, i will be off for business trip again. Really dread business trip because it means i will be out of sync on my diet and exercise plan. Hmm, when can i go below sub 60? I remembered one of my goals is to go below that sub 30 for my waistline. I have achieved that rather easily, but it was much more difficult for my weight.
Though it was emotional draining and demoralising, i am not ready to call it quits. There is always a tomorrow. I remembered there is a saying: Just keep working out, and you will get out of the plateau soon. This week, i think i have to review my plans with my trainer. It seems like for 2 weeks, i m getting nowhere. Hmmm.
Hopefully, next week will be a better week for me. Give myself a break on mon and thu. Cheer up, one day i will be there as long as i believe in my convictions. Hopefully the dreaded feeling of the weighing machine will soon go away.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Books
Happy Chinese New Year to all those who celebrate the occasion. It had been a good new year I must say. Probably I did the Chinese New Year with 'heart' this year. When you put your heart to something, the outcome is always different.
Anyway, it is said that Green is my lucky colour these few days. So Green it shall be. Was in a pretty relaxed mode probably due to the long weekend that has just passed. Went for a short progressive run today. Feeling quite all right. After the run, i decide to run down to the bookstore and grab a few books. Haven been reading for a while.
Actually, i had a few books in mind before i step ino Kino. Well, my first attempt failed. It was a Chinese novel by Rene Liu. The book went out of stock. No doubt I was disappointed, but perhaps it was just not meant to be. But, i will be back for the book, I promised. As i was browsing the Psychology section, I chanced on the Art of War. Actually, I have been eyeing on this book for a long time. I always felt i was too emtional at times during work. I ought to read some strategy book to improve myself. When i saw this book, i think it was fated. Without second thoughts, I grabbed it. I think I will start reading it tomorrow when i m bound for work.
I still had 2 books in mind. It was recommended by a guy whom i held high respect for. The first was The Tipping Point. After reading the synopsis, it sounds like an interesting book. Another kind of book that offers a different perspective to things. It is a pretty old book, published back in 2001. Back then, i have not appreciated the essence of readng. As you grow older, you tend to become more indoors, i guess. The second book has to do with Economics. It is called Freakonomics. Frankly, i am not really interested in reading serious book about analysing the economy, how to get rich etc, how to manage your finances. But this book caught my attention because it was written in a rather hiliarious way. So i grabbed these two as well.
Finally back to the Psychology section. Was contemplating on grabbing a book on Stumbling on happiness. I decided otherwise. Give myself a break. After i finished all these books, maybe i will make another trip down to Kino. Take it as a chance to reward myself.
It is really funny that i begin to read more as i grow older. Wonder if that is a sign of aging. I used to hate reading, it had more to do with my character. I was like a wild horse that had to be on the run all the time. Reading, to me is a sign of weakness, a sign of timidness, being indoors. Alas, as i grew older, i realised i have to read to improve myself. Maybe the wild horse has became an old horse that needed rest. Whatever it is, i am enjoying every bit of my new found hobby.
Indeed, it has been a fruitful day, stay happy.
p.s. received a very weird yahoo message just before i knocked off from a fren in Hanoi. Not sure what went wrong for him today, whatever it is, i hope he will be happy and stay strong. Is a pity i cannot be with him all the time, but i m rooting for him always.
Anyway, it is said that Green is my lucky colour these few days. So Green it shall be. Was in a pretty relaxed mode probably due to the long weekend that has just passed. Went for a short progressive run today. Feeling quite all right. After the run, i decide to run down to the bookstore and grab a few books. Haven been reading for a while.
Actually, i had a few books in mind before i step ino Kino. Well, my first attempt failed. It was a Chinese novel by Rene Liu. The book went out of stock. No doubt I was disappointed, but perhaps it was just not meant to be. But, i will be back for the book, I promised. As i was browsing the Psychology section, I chanced on the Art of War. Actually, I have been eyeing on this book for a long time. I always felt i was too emtional at times during work. I ought to read some strategy book to improve myself. When i saw this book, i think it was fated. Without second thoughts, I grabbed it. I think I will start reading it tomorrow when i m bound for work.
I still had 2 books in mind. It was recommended by a guy whom i held high respect for. The first was The Tipping Point. After reading the synopsis, it sounds like an interesting book. Another kind of book that offers a different perspective to things. It is a pretty old book, published back in 2001. Back then, i have not appreciated the essence of readng. As you grow older, you tend to become more indoors, i guess. The second book has to do with Economics. It is called Freakonomics. Frankly, i am not really interested in reading serious book about analysing the economy, how to get rich etc, how to manage your finances. But this book caught my attention because it was written in a rather hiliarious way. So i grabbed these two as well.
Finally back to the Psychology section. Was contemplating on grabbing a book on Stumbling on happiness. I decided otherwise. Give myself a break. After i finished all these books, maybe i will make another trip down to Kino. Take it as a chance to reward myself.
It is really funny that i begin to read more as i grow older. Wonder if that is a sign of aging. I used to hate reading, it had more to do with my character. I was like a wild horse that had to be on the run all the time. Reading, to me is a sign of weakness, a sign of timidness, being indoors. Alas, as i grew older, i realised i have to read to improve myself. Maybe the wild horse has became an old horse that needed rest. Whatever it is, i am enjoying every bit of my new found hobby.
Indeed, it has been a fruitful day, stay happy.
p.s. received a very weird yahoo message just before i knocked off from a fren in Hanoi. Not sure what went wrong for him today, whatever it is, i hope he will be happy and stay strong. Is a pity i cannot be with him all the time, but i m rooting for him always.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
新年快乐
今天是年除夕，心情很好。
也许，因为离家的日子越来越近了，
所以，我选择开心地渡过每一天，尤其是新年。
今天，我起得很早，吃了早点，便去跑步。
然后，我便开始准备团圆午餐与晚餐。
从十一点钟开始煮，一直到三点钟，我们才开始吃。
虽然很累，但很有成就感。
我想，我会一直记住这个新年，我当时的心情。
今天，我终于用“心”过新年了。
今天，也收到很多朋友的简讯。
感觉很好，原来有那么多朋友记得我。
也许，其实我们认识的人往往比自己知道得多吧。
我想，收到祝福是一件开心的事吧。
今天，很意外地收到远方的你的祝福。
那种感觉，是意外，窝心和兴奋的交叠。
昨日在和你连线，和你互相道贺新年。
我和你说了今天的团圆饭情景。
我和你说，如果你在的话，那该多好。
我想，唯一能感觉你在我的身边，就是传简讯给你。
你说你不能传给我，只能接受。
臭小子，竟然给了我那么好的惊喜。
其实，我真的没有想到你会回复，真得让你破费了。
今天，在跑步的当儿，想起了你。
我想，在2006年，最好的一件事，就是认识了你。
我想起我们的关系。
虽然我们的谈话都很“亲密”，
可是我真的只是把你当成一个朋友，一个知己。
虽然我们的谈话总离不开hugs, kissess and misses，
可是我觉得是两个好朋友的沟通方式。
我想，我们的关系蛮微妙的。
对你，我没有要求，所以我永远不会有失望。
希望，我们这样的关系，可以常常久久。
今天，感觉很好，已经好久没有那么at ease 了。
希望来临的猪年，大家一切都好。
大家身体健康，平安快乐。
我对自己的展望，只希望自己会开心，不要奢求什么。
祝大家新年快乐。
也许，因为离家的日子越来越近了，
所以，我选择开心地渡过每一天，尤其是新年。
今天，我起得很早，吃了早点，便去跑步。
然后，我便开始准备团圆午餐与晚餐。
从十一点钟开始煮，一直到三点钟，我们才开始吃。
虽然很累，但很有成就感。
我想，我会一直记住这个新年，我当时的心情。
今天，我终于用“心”过新年了。
今天，也收到很多朋友的简讯。
感觉很好，原来有那么多朋友记得我。
也许，其实我们认识的人往往比自己知道得多吧。
我想，收到祝福是一件开心的事吧。
今天，很意外地收到远方的你的祝福。
那种感觉，是意外，窝心和兴奋的交叠。
昨日在和你连线，和你互相道贺新年。
我和你说了今天的团圆饭情景。
我和你说，如果你在的话，那该多好。
我想，唯一能感觉你在我的身边，就是传简讯给你。
你说你不能传给我，只能接受。
臭小子，竟然给了我那么好的惊喜。
其实，我真的没有想到你会回复，真得让你破费了。
今天，在跑步的当儿，想起了你。
我想，在2006年，最好的一件事，就是认识了你。
我想起我们的关系。
虽然我们的谈话都很“亲密”，
可是我真的只是把你当成一个朋友，一个知己。
虽然我们的谈话总离不开hugs, kissess and misses，
可是我觉得是两个好朋友的沟通方式。
我想，我们的关系蛮微妙的。
对你，我没有要求，所以我永远不会有失望。
希望，我们这样的关系，可以常常久久。
今天，感觉很好，已经好久没有那么at ease 了。
希望来临的猪年，大家一切都好。
大家身体健康，平安快乐。
我对自己的展望，只希望自己会开心，不要奢求什么。
祝大家新年快乐。
Thursday, February 15, 2007
情人节
今年的情人节，和往年一样，过得很平淡。
上了kickboxing 课之后，收到好友的简讯。
我们都习惯在这么一天，庆祝友情节。
回了简讯之后，在回家的途中，我想起了身边“亲密”的人。
和友人已经步入第十个年头的友情。
我一直很庆幸，这十年里，一直有她的陪伴。
我何得何能， 今世能遇到一个那么志同道合的知己。
从她的身上，我学会了，即使有聪明的头脑，还是可以选择简单的生活。
思绪飞呀飞的，想起在远方的你。
情人节那天，你没有上网。
我想，可能你正和你亲密的爱人渡过吧。
我一直都不相信，你是孤家寡人一个。
今天，和你连线了。
第一句话，就是你想我。
对我来说，那很窝心，可是我也不觉得是真的。
可能，距离太远了，所以是真是假，我也无法分辨。
我的安全感又在作祟了。
我说我不信，你竟给我一个心碎的脸。
哈。
我想我很享受这样的沟通方式。
一种没有约束，没有期望的友情。
我的确是蛮想念我们相遇的那一段日子。
虽然很短，可是那感觉很好。
所以，我觉得认识你，很开心。
和另一个人比较下，我会比较愿意和你保持联络。
情人节，也想起了他。
他很久没找我了。
对我而言，他已经过去了。
很庆幸，我们还能保留这段友谊。
我始终觉得，他伤害了我。
不过，伤口已经痊愈了。
所以，不再排斥，不再逃避。
那天，和好友聊起他。
好友已经对他失去兴趣。
好友对你比较有兴趣。
哈。
和好友说，那一天和他一起出席婚宴。
散场时，我独自回家。
意外地受到他的简讯，要我到家时，回他简讯报平安。
我觉得莫名其妙，不过礼貌上还是回了。
他，竟然回复我。
那一刻，我想那个简讯迟了整整四年。
好友觉得，这个人很奇怪。
不时忽冷忽热。
当时，正在琢磨是否要和他说我即将离别。
后来，觉得真的没这个必要。
该了断的，已经在四年前就了断了。
我又何必节外生枝呢？
想起他，常常都有种无奈的感觉。
我想，我要的爱情真的不是这样。
我希望我想起某人时，
会是开心的， 窝心的。
纵然没有结果，我也心甘情愿。
我不想一直记住自己被另一个人伤得有多深。
所以，我决定让他随风而逝。
明年的情人节，我会在那里呢？
希望会有不同的收获。
上了kickboxing 课之后，收到好友的简讯。
我们都习惯在这么一天，庆祝友情节。
回了简讯之后，在回家的途中，我想起了身边“亲密”的人。
和友人已经步入第十个年头的友情。
我一直很庆幸，这十年里，一直有她的陪伴。
我何得何能， 今世能遇到一个那么志同道合的知己。
从她的身上，我学会了，即使有聪明的头脑，还是可以选择简单的生活。
思绪飞呀飞的，想起在远方的你。
情人节那天，你没有上网。
我想，可能你正和你亲密的爱人渡过吧。
我一直都不相信，你是孤家寡人一个。
今天，和你连线了。
第一句话，就是你想我。
对我来说，那很窝心，可是我也不觉得是真的。
可能，距离太远了，所以是真是假，我也无法分辨。
我的安全感又在作祟了。
我说我不信，你竟给我一个心碎的脸。
哈。
我想我很享受这样的沟通方式。
一种没有约束，没有期望的友情。
我的确是蛮想念我们相遇的那一段日子。
虽然很短，可是那感觉很好。
所以，我觉得认识你，很开心。
和另一个人比较下，我会比较愿意和你保持联络。
情人节，也想起了他。
他很久没找我了。
对我而言，他已经过去了。
很庆幸，我们还能保留这段友谊。
我始终觉得，他伤害了我。
不过，伤口已经痊愈了。
所以，不再排斥，不再逃避。
那天，和好友聊起他。
好友已经对他失去兴趣。
好友对你比较有兴趣。
哈。
和好友说，那一天和他一起出席婚宴。
散场时，我独自回家。
意外地受到他的简讯，要我到家时，回他简讯报平安。
我觉得莫名其妙，不过礼貌上还是回了。
他，竟然回复我。
那一刻，我想那个简讯迟了整整四年。
好友觉得，这个人很奇怪。
不时忽冷忽热。
当时，正在琢磨是否要和他说我即将离别。
后来，觉得真的没这个必要。
该了断的，已经在四年前就了断了。
我又何必节外生枝呢？
想起他，常常都有种无奈的感觉。
我想，我要的爱情真的不是这样。
我希望我想起某人时，
会是开心的， 窝心的。
纵然没有结果，我也心甘情愿。
我不想一直记住自己被另一个人伤得有多深。
所以，我决定让他随风而逝。
明年的情人节，我会在那里呢？
希望会有不同的收获。
Monday, February 12, 2007
窝心的感觉
今天，又再一次和你连线了。
感觉好窝心。
你问我，有没有想念你。
其实，我有注意到你这几天都没有上网。
如果，那算是想念，我想应该是有吧。
我觉得和你聊天，是一种很棒的感觉。
可能，我对你已经没有期望，
所以就不会有失望。
也因为我们的距离，
所以我想我们可以做聊天的朋友。
你说过几天又会带新加坡团。
我想，你因为新加坡而认识了我，
因为我，对新加坡有着一股亲切感。
你又会借着新加坡团，想起我们短短的日子。
我只能说，那段日子很短，但很美。
它，已经成为我记忆的一部分。
那天看到河内的照片，
又想起那一段日子。
真的好想回去。
我知道，我始终要面对现实。
真的，希望我们能再见面，
更希望我们能永远保持那窝心的感觉。
祝福你！
感觉好窝心。
你问我，有没有想念你。
其实，我有注意到你这几天都没有上网。
如果，那算是想念，我想应该是有吧。
我觉得和你聊天，是一种很棒的感觉。
可能，我对你已经没有期望，
所以就不会有失望。
也因为我们的距离，
所以我想我们可以做聊天的朋友。
你说过几天又会带新加坡团。
我想，你因为新加坡而认识了我，
因为我，对新加坡有着一股亲切感。
你又会借着新加坡团，想起我们短短的日子。
我只能说，那段日子很短，但很美。
它，已经成为我记忆的一部分。
那天看到河内的照片，
又想起那一段日子。
真的好想回去。
我知道，我始终要面对现实。
真的，希望我们能再见面，
更希望我们能永远保持那窝心的感觉。
祝福你！
Monday, February 05, 2007
安全感
今天，心情不是很漂亮。
又再为公事而懊恼。
于是，我决定，应该是放轻松的时候了。
那天，去观赏了《生日快乐》，由一股被感动的感觉。
我想，我哭了。
为了男女主角的爱情，我哭了。
我想，当谈到情感时，我还是容易被感动的。
看到小米，我觉得看到自己。
忽然间，我才恍然大悟。
原来，自己对爱情，一直都没有安全感。
我不知道，我是否可以和一个人常想厮守。
所以，我一直徘徊着。
在情人节来临之际，我还不能明确地说出我是否想settle down。
很悲哀。
小南送小米手机的那一幕， 依然很清晰。
小米拒绝小南，因为她不想当她想他时，却找不到他。
我想，我也是这样的一个人。
我一直不喜欢拨电话给人，因为我不喜欢那种想找人聊天，却是空等待。
久而久之，就养成和自己说话的习惯。
小米要和小南做，比情人还要好的朋友。
我，能了解。
小米不希望有一天会和小南分开， 不希望为他伤心落泪。
做好朋友，因为没有要求，所以就不会吵架，就不会分开。
这，也是我。
小米，不希望自己的世界里，多了一份爱情，也多了一份忧伤。
看了这部电影之后，有点心碎。
小米，因为自己的安全感，而错过了真正爱她的人。
我，不晓得有没有因为我的安全感，而错过真正爱我的人？
还是因为我的安全感，而举起不定呢？
希望，我能对爱情有多一点点的信心。
希望，在新的一年里，能找到愿意守护我的人。
如果有，我一定不让我的安全感作祟。
又再为公事而懊恼。
于是，我决定，应该是放轻松的时候了。
那天，去观赏了《生日快乐》，由一股被感动的感觉。
我想，我哭了。
为了男女主角的爱情，我哭了。
我想，当谈到情感时，我还是容易被感动的。
看到小米，我觉得看到自己。
忽然间，我才恍然大悟。
原来，自己对爱情，一直都没有安全感。
我不知道，我是否可以和一个人常想厮守。
所以，我一直徘徊着。
在情人节来临之际，我还不能明确地说出我是否想settle down。
很悲哀。
小南送小米手机的那一幕， 依然很清晰。
小米拒绝小南，因为她不想当她想他时，却找不到他。
我想，我也是这样的一个人。
我一直不喜欢拨电话给人，因为我不喜欢那种想找人聊天，却是空等待。
久而久之，就养成和自己说话的习惯。
小米要和小南做，比情人还要好的朋友。
我，能了解。
小米不希望有一天会和小南分开， 不希望为他伤心落泪。
做好朋友，因为没有要求，所以就不会吵架，就不会分开。
这，也是我。
小米，不希望自己的世界里，多了一份爱情，也多了一份忧伤。
看了这部电影之后，有点心碎。
小米，因为自己的安全感，而错过了真正爱她的人。
我，不晓得有没有因为我的安全感，而错过真正爱我的人？
还是因为我的安全感，而举起不定呢？
希望，我能对爱情有多一点点的信心。
希望，在新的一年里，能找到愿意守护我的人。
如果有，我一定不让我的安全感作祟。
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Pineapple Tarts
Chinese new year is coming. From the part of the world that I come from, everyone is in festive mood. It is the most celebrated festival in my country. Shops will be closed and most people will be visiting their relatives.
Honestly, i do not really like Chinese New Year because it is so boring. Shops are closed, no food available except fast food restaurant. That is the only time in my country that you will have problem finding something decent to eat, except fast food. And for New Year's visiting, it seemed like a routine to me. But i think this year, i felt different because it will be my last Chinese New Year before i depart for Australia to achieve my dreams. Somehow, i tend to take it in different stride, i wanted to remember every part of the last Chinese New Year I have here before i leave.
Look at the pineapple tarts in the picture, don't they looked professinal like what was sold in the markets? This year, I made them myself. I went over to an ex-colleague's house to learn the skills from her. Yesterday, i spend the whole day making them and thank God it turned out well. But, i had a few arguments with Mum during the process. I think I am still me, still so hot headed. Even so, Mother tend to forgive their children easily. I was feeling guilty though for shouting. When i m on my bad day, everything will tend to come out. So i must try to restrain myself.
Come to think of it, I think i will miss my country a lot when i leave, especially Chinese New Year when we have reunion dinner, and we would play mahjong till dawn the next day wif my siblings. Next year this time, I suppose i will be alone in a foreign land, missing them badly. But i know, that will only make me stronger, and one day I will be back again.
安慰
那天，和你连线了。
是开心，也很安慰。
我对你，已经不再思念了。
我知道，我已经把你当成一个朋友来看待。
也许，回来一个月了，
渐渐地，我也回到现实。
给你看了我的网上的照片，
很安慰你还记得我们的一起合拍的那唯一照片。
你说，你很失望，没看到那张照片。
我始终不想，把它放上网。
总觉得，那是我一个很美的回忆，
所以想私人收藏。
你和我要了那张相片，
说已经做成wallpaper。
我觉得很搞笑。
无论如何，和感谢你停流过。
也许，人越老越会珍惜身边的人与物。
但愿我们能再一次相见吧。
是开心，也很安慰。
我对你，已经不再思念了。
我知道，我已经把你当成一个朋友来看待。
也许，回来一个月了，
渐渐地，我也回到现实。
给你看了我的网上的照片，
很安慰你还记得我们的一起合拍的那唯一照片。
你说，你很失望，没看到那张照片。
我始终不想，把它放上网。
总觉得，那是我一个很美的回忆，
所以想私人收藏。
你和我要了那张相片，
说已经做成wallpaper。
我觉得很搞笑。
无论如何，和感谢你停流过。
也许，人越老越会珍惜身边的人与物。
但愿我们能再一次相见吧。
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