Talking to new friends

I have to admit, I am not in the best of moods ever since I came back from Yunnan. I have been feeling down to the point I would rate myself as a mild depression. I hated the kind of motion I was going through. I felt useless and I could not give meaning to the things that I was about to undertake. All in all, I felt I was going down down down. And the fact that I was working from home made it worse because I could not meet new people, open up new perspectives. In short, I could not find people to talk to when I needed it most.

I started making new acquaintances via msn. Yes, I am a party animal. I need to talk to feel alive. By new acquaintances, I do not really mean new friends. They refer to people whom I have contact with, but I have not really sat down and talked to them seriously. Is amazng how God's creation is really. When He closed a door, He opened a window. I had a 'slight' argument with one of my gems over the problem I was facing and I realised it was difficult to relate to her how I was feeling. Somehow, when a person knows you too well, there is a lot of preassumptions and it is difficult to break it down.

The first person that came was really unexpected. It was E, one my kakis to Yunnan. Honestly, I do not know her very well. All my kakis know I had some problem with my body ever since I came back. In short, my whole body felt weak and they thought it was phyiscal. So it all started one day with E asking me if I felt better. So it turned out, the conversation turned from the physical problem to mental problem. It turned out she perfectly understood what I was going through. Maybe she did not have the preassumptions about the problem and the party involved and she was able to see the problem in a different light. I was really grateful to her. It turned out that she too was a deep thinker. However, she chose to be happy whenever she could. In the end, the chat lasted about 2-3 hours and that sort of brought us closer together.

Sometimes friendship is really a funny thing. Out of nowhere, somebody came and offered consolation and in the end, I find myself another friend. We did mention, someday we should travel together again for both of us really had so much fun with each other. Honestly, without her, the trip would not be as enjoyable as it was.

The second person that came was JY. Frankly, I was only close to JY after we left where we came from. He went on to pursue his dreams in USA and he was someone I really admired. He reminded me of my younger days. I used to have the aspirations of working in Silicon Valley, USA once I graduated. But that was just a dream and this guy really went all the way out to fulfill his childhood dreams. It was again via msn that we got closer. It was funny. Maybe during msn, I could relate myself better.

He was going through a bad patch in life when he msn me. I felt sorry for him for he was all alone in USA. He just chatted with me not too long ago, about all the wonderful pictures he painted. I guess it was just not meant to be. Somehow, all the msn sessions brought us closer together. It became quite a normal routine for us to be chatting on our daily lives and events. It ranged from perspectives on relationships to the problems/struggles we faced. Somehow we clicked. And indeed, he was one of the rare male friends that I could chat freely with. Perhaps, he was such a nice guy and always so positive and more importantly, he was far away, so there was no expectations. Despite his heartbreak, he would check on me to make sure I was feeling good. I was truly appreciative of his good intentions.

For the next two days, he would be going through something hopeful. Really, I hope he would make it this time round. At least, amidst all the bad things he was going through, there was still something good that came out of it. Perhaps, that could be the window that God has left open for him. Like what I said to him, I will be praying for him.

Sometimes when I looked back, I guess we really have to keep an eye on the people around us. You never know who you know until you try. Things in life are so unpredictable. We may get too engrossed in our past relationships / friendships that we neglect those who are ready to lend a helping hand/ ear when the occasion arises.