Home Alone

Today marks the last day of me being home alone. How time flies. It has been 10 days since my folks left for holidays to Hokkaido and Sendai and I think I still have not made full use of the time being home alone. I guessed I was just to busy with my life as always.

Occassionally, it feels good to be home alone. I have the freedom in the world to "mess up" the house, to do whatever I wanted. I could get up at any time I wanted, and I could dish up any dishes whenever I felt like it. And of course, it feels good to enjoy the peace that is hardly evident in the house of mine as it was always full of people. But I guess the good things end here.

The bad things: I need to clean up the house after messing it up. Doing housework was never my forte. If there was any extra time, I would rather spending it surfing web or reading. However, as I promised my mother, I would be able to take care of the house and be a rare homemake for once. Every 2 or 3 days, I would need to wash my clothes. Washing clothes was not really difficult, but the difficult part is washing it without the washing machine. I knew I was being silly, trying to use the washing board, wasting precious time. But I guessed through doing it, I would truly appreciate my mother's efforts in keeping the house spick and span. Plus, my poor back acted up due to overexercise and on top of the housework, it was quite a tortue for me. After washing the clothes, then it was to mopping the floor and cleaning the dishes. These were quite light chores I guess. But the real challenge was how to keep the ants out of the house. Really had no idea where all the ants came from. I had to think of ways and means just to get rid of the different types of ants in the home. After all these housework and exercise time, I guess there was really only little time for me to enjoy. Sighz, I guessed I was not as good a time manager compared to my mother.

The other bad thing is when I needed somebody to talk to, I could not turn to anyone. There were just certain things that I did not like to talk to friends. I just got back my MRI scan reports. Results were not as optimistic as i hoped to be. There some collateral between my L4 and L5 and I needed to consult a specialist. No doubt I was worried. I wished my family especially my mother was there then to share the burden with me. It was then I realised I was not as strong as I thought myself to be, nor was I as independent. It dawned on me my mother was my pillar of strength all these while.

With this experience of being home alone, I really ought to think carefully if I wanted to live alone for the next 2 years in a foreign land. Things could be worse as besides my family, I would not have my friends with me as well. When I met a setback in life, I guessed my only soulmate would be my laptop. The thought of it made me quite pessimistic. Whatever it is, I guess I would have a decision by the time I come back from HongKong business trip.

And of course, I am looking forward to tomorrow where my folks will be back.